Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Pattern Recognition

No, not the William Gibson novel. More like trying to understand the things I see myself doing - over and over again.

I need to register for school. I need to pay my bills. Lord knows I need to do laundry, dishes, housekeeping, go to the gym, stop eating crap food, get enough sleep, look both ways when I cross the street, don't run with scissors, wear clean underwear in case of an accident, don't talk to perverts (hi, mom) - YAEAGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or maybe what I really need to do is take a deep breath, relax, and accept that this is where I am right now, and it's ok. This past year has had more changes than I even know how to process, and there's a lot more to come before the year is over. I need to give myself permission not to be so bloody perfect all the time - and change the pattern of beating myself up for failing to live up to standards I wouldn't dream of imposing on anyone else.

I approve of myself - I approve of myself - I approve of myself /self help mantra

posted by Space Kitty at 8:33 PM|| Comments (1)