Saturday, March 19, 2005

Paging Dr. Jung..... paging Dr. Freud.....

Couldn't sleep last night until nearly 4 am and then had the strangest dream. I was in a very intense relationship. It was someone I'd never met in waking life, and not of the type that I would ordinarily be attracted to. We had purchased a large, multi-story house on a large plot of land with extensive grounds. (Pool, garden, I think even a tennis court) Relationship Guy was really upset because it turned out that the prior owners had decided to remain living on the property, on the ground floor in a separate apartment with a private entrance. I couldn't understand why RG was so upset, since the house was huge and the owners were completely out of our way - but, whatever. In the meantime, I was really frustrated because somehow I hadn't had any input at all on the decision to buy this house. But it seemed ok, even if I was a little overwhelmed by the scale of it all. Lots & lots of the dream consisted of walking from room to room, investigating the new house, furnishing & grounds.

The only person from waking life in the dream was Space Kitten, who was also kind of baffled by the whole situation. She was younger in the dream. She seemed to be adjusting well to the move, but - like me - couldn't really understand how we had gotten there. Somehow RG decided (again, without my input) that we'd be adopting two kids. (!!)

So in the course of exploring the house, I kept finding more and more people there (adult and child), all of whom I was responsible for in some way. I kept trying to tell RG that "look - this is ridiculous. It's not like we're babysitting here, we're responsible for these kids for the rest of our lives and you didn't even give me the courtesy of a choice here?!" - but he couldn't understand why I was so upset, and I had to keep playing it down to keep from upsetting all those kids and our guests.

The last thing I remember was struggling to be reaaaallly patient with one of the kids who was wigging out over not knowing the protocol for some strange festival she wanted to attend that evening. We didn't have cable modem yet, so I was helping her look it up on my cell phone.

So I get that I'm worried about not having enough agency over my life, but good lord. What a dream. I blame the crap pizza & wings I ate last night. Not to mention the beer! (no more beer for me. ever. yuck. Sam Adams Light, I BLAME YOU!)

So, I'm off to do some paperwork and some serious housekeeping. I also need to put together some snacks for tomorrow's D&D game. Space Kitten has a show in Hollywood tonight, so in a way I'm glad my days & nights are turned around right now. It'll be fun!

(And thanks again to both Kimberly and Lee for helping out with career drama below - ya'll rock)

posted by Space Kitty at 11:56 AM|| Comments (3)